April232014
5AM
“From childhood’s hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.” Edgar Allen Poe
April212014
Feral Cats - I have been caring for a clowder of feral cats for well over a year now.  I’ve watched more than one litter be born.  I’ve adopted one kitten, found a home for another from the next litter.  Still, I am sorely lacking in funding and the ability to do more.
If you live in Upstate New York or know anyone located in or near the Mohawk Valley, please direct them to me if they are willing to help me find said help.
What do I need?  I need a vet to neuter/spay as many as possible.  This might require a catch and release type intervention.  I could use someone who’s willing to set, retrieve, deliver & return the cats once fixing is complete.
I could use financial help - in whatever form that takes.  A carpenter who wants to do the work to convert our garage into a shelter that I can better maintain over winters would be wonderful. 
I’ve had one person ship me dry food directly from Amazon.  That was a godsend during the winter months.  Someone else donated knitted blankets to help them survive the cold, cold winter we had this year.
Anything is helpful.  If you’ve read my blog, you  know I am an HSP with FMS, DDD, Anxiety, etc.  It makes it harder or me to do some of the things that need doing.
I’m good with the kitties.  I’ve managed to tame several of them, but many more have either gone missing or been otherwise dealt with.  I don’t want to know details.  I prefer to think they’ve wooed a human to take them in.
As you can see, this kitten (~6 weeks old) is ill.  They all are always sick.  If a local vet wants to make house calls, that’d be very nice once some changes are made to the garage.
I suck at begging or asking for help - but it’s getting tough and I don’t want these babies to suffer any more than they already do in a neighborhood that is sometimes horribly cruel to them. 
If you can help or have a friend that can - PM me or have them.  It will be greatly appreciated.  Also, a lawyer who knows how to set this stuff up might be an idea.  Anyone who wants to be the “paperwork person” can certainly help. 
I’ll do the cat whispering part, feed and water them, for the rest I need a few loving souls to aid. 
p.s. I’ve contacted every cat agency in the area with no success.  My emails go unanswered.  I know there are so many to help but it’s disheartening to be ignored.  I’m not an “in your face” kind of person.  Just FYI.  :)

Feral Cats - I have been caring for a clowder of feral cats for well over a year now.  I’ve watched more than one litter be born.  I’ve adopted one kitten, found a home for another from the next litter.  Still, I am sorely lacking in funding and the ability to do more.

If you live in Upstate New York or know anyone located in or near the Mohawk Valley, please direct them to me if they are willing to help me find said help.

What do I need?  I need a vet to neuter/spay as many as possible.  This might require a catch and release type intervention.  I could use someone who’s willing to set, retrieve, deliver & return the cats once fixing is complete.

I could use financial help - in whatever form that takes.  A carpenter who wants to do the work to convert our garage into a shelter that I can better maintain over winters would be wonderful. 

I’ve had one person ship me dry food directly from Amazon.  That was a godsend during the winter months.  Someone else donated knitted blankets to help them survive the cold, cold winter we had this year.

Anything is helpful.  If you’ve read my blog, you  know I am an HSP with FMS, DDD, Anxiety, etc.  It makes it harder or me to do some of the things that need doing.

I’m good with the kitties.  I’ve managed to tame several of them, but many more have either gone missing or been otherwise dealt with.  I don’t want to know details.  I prefer to think they’ve wooed a human to take them in.

As you can see, this kitten (~6 weeks old) is ill.  They all are always sick.  If a local vet wants to make house calls, that’d be very nice once some changes are made to the garage.

I suck at begging or asking for help - but it’s getting tough and I don’t want these babies to suffer any more than they already do in a neighborhood that is sometimes horribly cruel to them. 

If you can help or have a friend that can - PM me or have them.  It will be greatly appreciated.  Also, a lawyer who knows how to set this stuff up might be an idea.  Anyone who wants to be the “paperwork person” can certainly help. 

I’ll do the cat whispering part, feed and water them, for the rest I need a few loving souls to aid. 

p.s. I’ve contacted every cat agency in the area with no success.  My emails go unanswered.  I know there are so many to help but it’s disheartening to be ignored.  I’m not an “in your face” kind of person.  Just FYI.  :)

8AM
April182014
April112014
April72014
“So called ‘late-bloomers’ get a bad rap. Sometimes the people with the greatest potential often take the longest to find their path because their sensitivity is a double edged sword- it lives at the heart of their brilliance, but it also makes them more susceptible to life’s pains. Good thing we aren’t being penalized for handing in our purpose late. The soul doesn’t know a thing about deadlines.” Jeff Brown (via venuschild)
7AM

Triggers

What’s a trigger?  It’s something that, when “pulled” sets off an explosive reaction.  Okay…so that’s carrying the metaphor a little far, but not really.

Triggers can be anything that causes a reaction in us.  It can be a scent that reminds us of baking with grandma (possible good reaction) or a song that makes our skin crawl because it’s the same one playing when that creepy guy tried to touch us.  Triggers are useful tools we can use to heal and make our lives better.  The only catch is you have to be willing to feel all that crap in order to work out the trigger.

Many highly sensitive folks suffer from anxiety.  Why?  Because we’ve got lots of triggers and normal folks find it fun and often just not are aware that they are pulling them.  Some triggers for anxiety might be:

  • Busy schedule
  • Meeting someone new
  • Ringing phone
  • Certain scents
  • Any sensory input that connects us to trauma

Limited list, yes, but it gives you a general idea.  Highly sensitive individuals tend to pick up on stimuli far more easily and readily than others.  Our “finely tuned nervous system” is wired this way.  So, there’s no use trying to be other than what we are.  That in itself might be a trigger – trying to act normal.  If we can allow ourselves the freedom to be as we are and to work through some of the things that cause our present anxiety, we may find we like being what we are.

(I’m currently working on a book about all of this.  If you’re interested, feel free to post a comment and I’ll let you know when it’s released.  Semi-soon is the best I can do as my HSP-ness keeps finding things to fix. :) )

When something triggers us, we tend either to run, freeze or fight.  It’s all natural responses for our way of being.  But, because it’s seen as “weird” by those not so inclined, we tend to repress our reactions.  This means that things that we might be able to view as “normal” for us soon become internal spring-loaded traps. 

Let’s say you were subjected to being taunted with bananas as a child.  The smell of a banana could make you anxious.  The sight of yellow might do the same.  We tend to avoid that which makes us uncomfortable…especially around other people.  That’s why working with your triggers in private is key.

Take some time to desensitize yourself to the stimulus.  It’s a common technique.  Start out with a picture of a banana.  It’s going to be stimulating enough just as a picture.  (or snake or spider or angry mate or whatever your trigger(s) may be)  Let yourself feel the anxiety for just a few seconds.  Then put it away and leave it.  When you have time or just as you’re doing other things, think about your reaction.  Why do you now have that reaction?  Let your mind wander.  One thing we don’t consider is that our strong creativity is very useful in this task.  We can ponder things in so many variations that eventually, we find a solution or at the very least, a direction to keep working.

The ancient Greeks believed that if you thought about something long enough, the answer would come.  I can only say that for me, this has been 100% true.  Patience might be a key to it.  You don’t have to solve a problem here and now.  That’s all very “normal” but since we’re not “normal” we get to do other things to work out our issues.

So, think about it.  Then think about it some more.  There is no rush and you don’t ever HAVE to solve this.  That’s one choice we seldom consider.  We get to choose IF we want to change something and then we get to choose HOW and WHEN.  There’s a great sense of freedom in acknowledging this power.  Just because the rest of the world says you should do things this way or that it doesn’t mean WE have to.

Triggers are going to be issues for any highly sensitive individual.  But if we work with our strengths and not try to push ourselves to be like the rest of the world, we may find that we can work our triggers into something else completely.  Maybe a piece of art.  Maybe a song.  Maybe just a moment of knowing that it’s okay to be as we are with no solution. 

Acceptance is a great tool for the HSP.  Use it well.  :)

April62014
April32014

Thank you!

Thank you for the birthday wishes.  I can’t find where to reply or give a heart…so I’ll have to do it here.

It’s very kind of you to offer me your well wishes.

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